Having fun…isnt hard…when you got a library card!…. I totally stole that line right there, the one you read just before this one, either above or to the left of this very text (dependding on your browser setting, screen size and resolution)…. from an awesome T.V. show I used to/still watch called Arthur. <—- cool story
Anyway. It is funny how sometimes the simplest activities, the nights where you have no plan and the events that take place are completely spontaneous and random can be the ones where the most fun can be had.
What exactly is fun? Its a bit hard to describe really… Having fun for me, usually involves friends and I like to think that I contribute to the whole ‘having fun’.
I have absolutely no idea where I am going with this…..so I will end it…..RIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT NOW!
So lately ive been asking myself if things happen for a reason. Sometimes I agree with this statement, but as I dont believe in a God (controller), I cant see how things are controlled in this way, are they merely coincidences which ofcourse we are going to notice as we have either just thought about or just talked about it or whatever….
It is easy to say “why does this happen to me?” when something bad happen….. yet we never say it when things go our way…. its like we expect things to just go our way and never worry incase they dont or wont. It is not being negative, its being realistic….
Sometimes I get this feeling where im expecting something to happen, like I deserve for it to happen but when I ask myself why, I fail to give a valid reason or answer….. maybe I am just a greedy person and don’t appreciate what I have…. It can be hard sometimes to appreciate things when your used to them being there day in day out…. I don’t know any better? Maybe I am thinking about things too much… like always.
Back to destiny/fate…. If you believe in it, then you think everything happens for a reason…. I agree with this….. I want to know what the big picture is! Is there a correlation of degree of conciousness and feeling of destiny/fate? Meaning if we are mentally aware of things happen we can relate it back to prior thoughts and dreams creating a sense of coincidence…. freaky.
There are so many things I could write about that I just seem to merge them all together under the one title…. Sometimes I feel as though my mind is really active and thoughts are racing through my head…. but what good is that if I am not actually doing anything about it? I can sit there all day thinking of getting an icecream but it doesnt put one in my hand?
Lately I feel like I just cant get things done…. I say I want to go to the beach, but never actually get there… (one of many things) it is starting to annoy me a bit. Am I lacking motivation? Days are passing me by and nothing is being achieved…. or maybe I am expecting too much.
It’s like I just want things to happen without putting in the effort necessary for it to. I have become accustomed to things just randomally popping up keeping my life interesting like a new hobby or a new friendship…something? These last few months my life has just been super repetitive. I am not creating any life memories from these repitive boring days which lack that element of surprise or randomness…..
It is hard to not compare your own to someone elses….. On another note, when I look at the things in my life which “need” to be done…..such a university work and studies, im quite on top of things…. but that gives me zero pleasure or anything?
Enough of this depressive babble. I got a pretty awesome denim shirt yesterday yeah….. I have this goal (a new car) which is a pretty exciting long term goal for me. Also I am on a quest…. a quest to get all of the Ministry of Sound - Chill Out Session albums :) i enjoy studying to them.
Hope you enjoyed a slice of brain.
‘cya at 7:30’ arrives at 8:00 with no message of any sort to inform you of the lateness…..you have just read one of many definitions of a ‘dud’.
With the abundance of communication methods at hand today, is it really that difficult to say “hey, ill be a little late”…..
(So much negativity….. ill write about something nice tomorrow).
We all get into certain moods which can cause us to act differently to our ‘normal’ self. Sometimes these moods are often provoked by certain things, othertimes unknown factors can alter ones mood.
A change of mood isn’t always a bad thing, but sometimes can be interpretted by those who ‘know’ you as something being ‘wrong’ when it might not be the case. Sometimes I feel like everyone assumes in this funny/eratic person 24/7 and when I am not in that particular ‘mood’ something is wrong…. can be pretty annoying because people are like “jeremy must be wanting to be left alone” when I feel as though im not sending those signals at all…. cool story bro?
I wish people knew me better….. we all have to fake our moods sometimes, some people just dont understand…
Maybe I need better friends, who know me better. Maybe I should stop bitching?
Where to start. Okay, I’m 19 years old, I study full time, I work casually, roughly 14 hours a week. I still pay tax. I have to drive to uni in my car which costs money, petrol, insurance, registration, tyres, maintenance and upkeep. I have to pay money to park at uni, I pay for textbooks, a laptop, a bag, clothes and food. I get no help from the government.
What annoys me is the fact some people get money each week, for doing nothing? They don’t have a job and essentially “not contributing to society”. Why is it that the working have to support those who don’t work? Why is it someone from another country gets government assistance and I get none?
I’m not asking for government handouts, I’m asking for there to be none….. have a think about it.
Such a strange feeling. It splits the mind into two. What we should have done, and what we actually did. What have you felt guilty about before? Saw someone drop money and not returned it? Depending what your morals are determines what you will feel guilty about. Then you have the ‘karma’ involved aswell…..
Sometimes it is for the best.
All asians are good at math, all jews are stingy, all blacks like watermelon and fried chicken….. stereotypes go so much beyond that of skin colour. By the clothes someone wears or the car they drive, the way they speak, what they speak about, we label them into stereotypes. My definition of a douchebag is different to the person i label a douchebag’s definition of a douchebag…..
If we already know someone, we tend to stereotype them even though they may change, things they have done in the past still linger in others minds. Quite annoying really… I dont like it when people stereotype me…. but i continue you to do so to everyone else…. i dont know how to not stereotype someone?
We all say we try to see people for who they are….. but im yet to meet someone who does just that.
More blabbering from yours truly.